passions were given for a reason…right?

i look back at my 4 years in college and i wonder…where and how did i get so fired up for what i want to do? sustainable tourism development? it’s so random! as i was a child, my typical korean parents did what most typical korean parents did at the time…expose the kid to as much math as possible.
how did i end up so different? how did my interests become so different from the common careers like accounting, finance, management, law, doctor…etc? i have no idea where it came from. so many people i’ve met in college asked me the typical “so what are you majoring in” question and i’ve always answered “hospitality/tourism mgmt” but always got myself ready to answer the bigger follow-up question: “wow, so what are you trying to do after?”. for a while i thought i was just going into the hotel industry. although i love the industry, something inside wasn’t rubbing me the right way.
You know that feeling when something may look complete but inside it bugs you because it just doesn’t FEEL complete. Well that’s what it felt like. I loved working at hotels and the concept of service and quality is like my second..well, really third language since my second is korean.
i honestly can’t remember what triggered it. but i do have a theory. when enough people ask you what your major is and what you want to do with it or any variation of the questions what you really want to go for will dawn on you. i think that’s what happened. it started out as an idea and i was too afraid to research it because i didn’t want to find out that it didn’t exist. so i was on a cloud for a while telling myself that…somehow i’m gonna do it. but it turned out that such a thing existed and that was called sustainable tourism development.
i still know so little but ever since that “idea” popped into my head, i’ve been on fire. now that i know it exists i’m getting hotter. there must be a reason why i fell into hospitality and loved it. there must be a reason why such an idea popped into my head and why i’ve gone through a few hurdles already to turn things around to go for what i want. there must be a reason why God’s given me such a strong passion for this right? and since God’s given me this undeniable passion for something that my head couldn’t have made up, only being drilled with the typical mathematics since i was a child, he’s gonna pave a way for it to happen.

but i have to admit after moving back home it’s been hard to keep my mind focused on what is it that i’m on fire for. it’s been difficult because nothing seemed to be panning out. i’m losing steam…i want something to help me hold on to what i’m so passionate about and where i want to get to.

The beginning…

i was held hostage until i made a blog. but it turns out that i already had a username and password. hahah. i’ll be writing out my thoughts with the hopes of making sense out of the chaos in my head. one thing i ask though…as you read don’t limit me to what you’re reading. as hard as i will try to write out my thoughts it won’t be conveyed in the right way..guaranteed.

mm…so here we go =)